midlife crisis

I want to defy aging. Not because I fear the signs and symptoms of it, but rather how I do things when I am old.

I presume that when a person gets older, they tend to think a lot of consequences and naturally, they will end up having a fear for doing things. I'm not saying that I am a reckless youth or is trying to be a reckless youth for the rest of my life.

But I'm referring to some things like say, some youthful stuff which doesn't involve putting my life in risk / my family in despair. (People tend to think that doing outrageous youthful things means snorting drugs and the likes, but hell no.)

And I realised that recently I'm getting too annoyed by people. When I was younger, I didn't care when I said I didn't care. These annoying lesser roles were mundane to me, but now I'm so affected by these people whom I used to deem insignificant.

WHY AM I GOING THROUGH A MIDLIFE CRISIS AT THE AGE OF 17.

Ok, since it's about one month to the death of my teenagehood, I think I will be keeping a journal / sketchbook during this time and I'll document the young things I do everyday.
CHANNEL TEENAGE ANGST, ELIZ.