since you've convinced yourself

Get a taste of it.

Selfish acts to prove a point. There's only this much your little heart can contain and so far you love yourself too much for other things. You felt like you knew what you were doing, but all these time you were just lying to yourself and everyone else. You tried to convince yourself that you knew where you were going, and you did. Now the blame is pushed to others because you are so convinced that you, are, right.

We sense desperation.