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Well, I'm going to be twenty this year.

I'm not quite sure what to feel about that since I still feel sixteen. I never understood why people call it "Sweet Sixteen" though - it sounds fucking disgusting and I never thought that my sixteen was "sweet" or anything like that. Me and my friends weren't exactly demure, but we weren't exactly rowdy either. I'm not sure about my friends but I feel socially awkward all the time. I wasn't one of people whom others would remember my name but then they'd probably just remember me anyway because I am just ... there. As I remembered, nobody made fun of me, because I never gave them the kind of reaction they wanted.

Now, if I had a word to describe my sixteen, it would be ...